May 30, 2009

A Bit of Art

It's a simple one, but was fun to make. I read a quote from Laura Laine, this uh-mazing b&w illustrator/fashion designer/artist,"Color is merely an intrusion in the world of art."

imposeimposeimpose

I disagree with her...completely, but I wanted to give painting a shot with just black and white. My canvas was too big to properly scan her in but this was the result. I don't know why parents do this, but when both my mom and dad saw it, they didn't praise it or critique it or anything normal; they just kept demanding to know who it was. They're annoying.

I really like painting people. It would be cool to do the art for a murder mystery novel or something, like Disquiet. Hm, new career aspiration? Trying to think up a name for this chick...

Uncaffeinated Train of Thought

I often feel like I should talk about something intelligent, or news-worthy, on a blog, other than my day-to-day life. Because it feels like an imposition on people to talk about what I accomplished today or what I think about something. And what if someone asked about what I blogged about, and I could only honestly answer, myself? But when I look at other people's blogs, I love reading when they talk about themselves. It's fascinating and funny and I feel like I can be better friends with them, in a satisfyingly voyeuristic kind of way, even if I don't know them. I guess that's incentive to continue as is. And I'm excited to publish more fiction. I don't really know what the problem is, because I happily make 20 page scrapbooks about my life (I have four big ones now, for each semester of college) but they're only for my kids someday, so they know I was totally cool.

I really hope my kids are cool. If they're not, I'm going to be super disappointed. Not cool like quarterback of the football team cool, because if that were the case, I'd disown him on the grounds of being a tool (if he's anything like my high school's quarterback), but cool like I can chill with them sometimes. That's all I want from my kids. I still have awesome shopping trips with my mom and am not ashamed of it, not at all.

Overkill has been on my mind a lot lately. I've been tossing around lots of ideas in my head about where it's going to go, since I guess, with Erin and Emily out for good, the whole thing will rest on my shoulders. But lots of great people have stepped up saying they want to help, so hopefully this means it won't be hard to get writers and designers in the fall. I'm most nervous (read: terrified) about the first meeting where it'll just be me up there organizing the voting for new officers and delegating responsibilities with no E&E by my side. It's a big deal though, because here's a perfect chance for someone like me to bring Overkill in a direction that will make a long-lasting, eclectic mark on the campus for years to come, and that's not something every college student gets to do.

...GAH. I need coffee.

May 28, 2009

A Poor Attempt at Fiction by Katrina A. Tulloch


Domino


Royo Takishimi walks out of his apartment at 3:59 PM and is almost immediately run down by an ice cream truck going much too fast. The truck driver screeches away nonchalantly and Royo shakes his fist at the puff of smoke it leaves.

Royo is having quite a bad day. His girlfriend packed up and left him last night. He usually has sex with her in the mornings but not this morning. He just had a late lunch by himself at home – leftover Chinese takeout – but is now going back to work.

Blair Charlotte is a beautiful little girl. She already won first place at Little Miss Sunflower and had actually been stopped on the street last year by an acting/modeling agent. Blair’s mother Yolanda would have signed her up right away but it happened while Blair was with her father for the week. He picked Blair up off the ground and flipped the agent off while carrying her away. Blair cried about it until her father bought her a Barbie and strawberry ice cream. She just got out of her last class and is on the school-sanctioned bus ride to her ballet lessons.

Yolanda, Blair’s mother, won the 1985 Beauty of the Boroughs Pageant based on her silver bikini and moderately skillful baton twirling. She is currently stuck in traffic on the corner of Manhattan and 9th. Her platinum blonde hair razored into a severe chop sways every time she glances out her cab window at the light. She taps her foot irritatingly until her stiletto slips off.
Yolanda huffs, bends down, and pulls it back on. As the cab begins to finally pull forward, she sits up and spots an ATM out the window.

Yolanda is late to pick up Blair from ballet and hasn’t paid the ballet teacher in nearly four weeks now. She has also just realized she has no cash to pay the cab driver. She suddenly asks Muhammad Jazhal to pull over for a moment. Muhammad, who should've gone on his break ten minutes ago, sighs and does so.


Royo gets back to the office on time, but immediately realizes he forgot his quarterly competitive marketing proposal on the kitchen table. He is scheduled to present it to his boss in half an hour. He clenches his eyes together, then takes off, but he will not get back in time.

Yolanda flies to the ATM, just cutting off a man wearing a black business suit, even though it is over ninety degrees out. She hastily apologizes as she punches in her PIN number, Clark’s birthday, which she mentally reminds herself to change now that the divorce is final.

Royo gets home at 6:59 PM. He is exhausted but looking forward to being comforted about the proposal fiasco by Claire until he remembers she’s gone. He is hungry but does not want to go eat out alone. He flips on the TV to hear his stock has plummeted another few points.

Blair is the only ballerina left. Her forehead is pressed against the front glass of the ballet studio on West 53rd.

“Sweetie, should I call your mom again?”
Mrs. Valmont is 56 years old and doesn’t know how to work a cellular phone.
“OK.”
And Mrs. Valmont is in the back room using the rotary phone on the wall next to her framed 1962 degree from Linda’s Collegiate School of Dance. Yolanda feels the vibration in her coat pocket but continues to punch buttons.

Royo is still hungry. He doesn’t keep much food at home because he often goes out with Betsy. Royo looks everywhere for his Yellow Pages to call for pizza, but his sneaky old illegal immigrant neighbors always steal them because they’re not registered as citizens.

Yolanda arrives at Twinkletoes Junior Studios half an hour late. She apologizes profusely to Mrs. Valmont and hands her a fat wad of cash. Mrs. Valmont seems perfectly satisfied with this apology. Blair, on the other hand, is furious.

“I was waiting forever.”
“I know, Sweetie Pie, I’m so sorry. My cab got stuck in traffic. I’ll tell you what; how about I bring you to a movie tonight? Broadway show? What will make it better?”

Royo Takishimi gives up on the Yellow Pages and hunts down a 24/7 Pizza Delivery place online. He calls them up and orders a large sausage and mushroom pizza for himself. A friendly young woman on the other end says it’ll be there in just ten minutes. Royo sighs in relief and contentment and flops back onto his burgundy leather couch.

Blair and Yolanda are on the cab ride home to Yolanda’s Park Avenue apartment. Yolanda is on the phone with Blair’s flute teacher.

“That just will not work. You must reschedule that recital for the 19th; it’s impossible for her to miss this audition. You don’t understand, we’ve had it arranged for months.”
“Mom, it’s really OK if I miss just one – ”
“Quiet, honey. They’ll fix it. Yes, I understand there are other students scheduled, but my daughter is the First Chair flutist – what exactly do you plan to do without her?”

Royo goes to the door with his wallet, completely forgetting that he was never able to get money at the ATM today, on account of a blonde woman emptying the last of the cash stored in the machine right before him. Royo desperately asks the pizza boy if he can pay by check or credit card. The pizza boy stares at him, then turns and walks away with the pizza, shaking his head, his dreadlocks swinging back and forth. Royo stands in the doorway and watches him go. No cab, no pizza. He needed to get cash soon. He remembers he has some Ramen left in his cabinet.

Yolanda hangs up.
“I told you not to do that.”
“It’s for your own good, darling.
Blair glowers at her mother.

The water is boiling. Royo snips a strip of plastic from the top of the Ramen and goes to pull out the teriyaki flavor packet that isn’t there. He peers into the little red bag. Surely a mistake. Royo shakes the dry noodles from the bag. Empty. Of all the billions of Ramen packages in the world, someone forgot to put in the flavor packet in this one. Royo’s eye twitches.

“Oh, don’t give me that look, young lady. As a Charlotte, you ought to learn this lesson sooner rather than later. It’s important they know who’s in charge. We’re the benefactors in this world; we put food on their table, and they often need to be reminded. Don’t you forget that.”
Blair sighs and rests her head on the cab window.

Royo is running toward his balcony. The screen door is wide open.
He doesn’t think. He jumps to the street below.

Clark Charlotte is half-listening to the news on the 1994 Sanyo television fixed above the bar. An unintentional suicide murder, it is. Some guy jumped from his apartment right into 14th Street. A mother and daughter crushed on impact, but their cab driver is fine.

Clark chuckles, “Good for the cab driver,” and orders another round of drinks.

Clark’s boss laughs, “Hope his register’s running as long as they’re stuck in the cab.” They continue to guffaw at the broadcast, celebrating Clark’s great marketing proposal that afternoon.

Fact

This blog isn't interesting at all.


Maybe some fiction or news or poetry
rants or reviews or revelations
or pictures
will help.

Wonderful Things Right Now

1. Just got hired as a waitress at Friendly's, where I really wanted and needed a summer job. My manager is so chill and down-to-earth, too. Everyone has been telling their hair-curling stories of food service, so I've got my tolerant shield up, but I really am excited to start. And I've worked with ice cream and kids before at Cold Stone, so I guess it'll be just like that except with waitressing and no carpel tunnel. It's the Friendly's right by the hood though, and the manager said she had to kick some people out once for threatening to shank one of the waitresses. Should be interesting.
2. Soon-to-be Supreme Court Justice Sonia Sotomayor (!)

3. I'm going shopping today for ice cream-colored polo shirts for Friendly's! That's seriously the uniform. "They have to be an ice cream color," she said. I was thinking about this today; I'm happy to get more polo shirts because I have always liked them and never bought them because they're so associated with a preppy stigma, but I only like them because they're so colorful. And now I can wear them to work in Admissions all the time too! Sweet muffins.

polo polo polo polo polo polo polo polo

4. Got a letter from Maggie yesterday!


5. I have a strawberry popsicle right now.


So life is currently pretty sweet.

May 21, 2009

May 18, 2009

I do not know what I want.

There's this boy. I met him during a game of Apples-to-Apples at a three-week writing camp at a prestigious liberal arts college in the summer of my junior year of high school. I enjoy layers of prepositional phrases. As the weeks rolled by, we talked, walked, he played his bass for me, I gave him a blow job in the woods by the college's recreational field, he fingered me on the lawn next to the college's observatory, etc.

I haven't seen him since, as he lives states and states away, but we talk on Facebook occasionally. I don't really know what impact I made on him but our mutual comments are consistently friendly and arguably flirtatious, as we pour in and out of relationships at home. I don't care to tell him what he means/meant/will mean to me, in fact, I would immediately prefer that he doesn't because I can't readily define it. I don't love him, I don't mind if I never see him again, but I'm attracted to his fleeting presence in my life. In following his colorful albums and various links, I found his blog just an hour ago. I didn't know he had one but since he always struck me as intelligent, creative, and thoughtful, I was interested to see what he had to say.

"Today more than ever we have to be political, we have declined into a state of self-interest that leads most of us to live our lives as if we were being constantly filmed. We no longer concern ourselves with social progress, but only with self-progress. A result of the triumphant capitalist mentality that has become so pervasive everywhere we turn. Capitalism, they say, is a beautiful thing. The only system that gives us an incentive to be innovative as opposed to lazy. The innovation comes from the assumption that we all want to make as much money as possible, or that we all want as much as possible. We are told this lie everyday. The truth is that corporations, not people, want to make as much money as possible and/or get as many resources as possible. The people have become mindless consumers that truly believe they have a mind of their own. The parallel between today’s people and the character Don Quijote from El ingenioso hidalgo Don Quijote de la Mancha by Cervantes is remarkable. Most people truly believe that they live in a democratic society, that the market is good, that the media is telling them the truth, and that consumerism is good. Don Quijote was one of few crazy characters in the story by Cervantes, but today we seem to have governments and constituents of Don Quijotes world wide. This time, however, Don Quijote does not imagine him or her self being a virtuous knight, but instead he or she “thinks” they are a rational person (perhaps from reading too much literature that so narrowly defines rationally, or just from watching too much TV)."

His thoughts aren't necessarily new, but they refreshing to me, and I know I am not as intelligent as I would be prefer to be. This may be a lack of ambition, natural aptitude, or interest in education on my part, or the result of too many nights smoking weed at college, it doesn't concern me hugely.

I really wish I could explain the following thought better, but I can't - the sexual connection I had with him years ago inexplicably makes me feel as if I should be able to possess what he says here. I understand it perfectly and appreciate it. I agree with it. And yet, I still enjoy consumerism, I don't want it but I enjoy it. I still feel as if I am doing right by enjoying it. I read the words "mindless consumer" and am OK with it.

And that makes me want to cry.

May 17, 2009

SPOCKLOVE

I spent last night having a grand moviethensleepover with Kimberly Fry, one of my favorite people in the entire world. -->
We saw Star Trek....

I've never been a Trekkie, I suppose, I probably didn't get any significant references in the movie and even right after we left the theater, I still wouldn't have been able to articulate what a Klingon was if someone had asked (I thought they were bad guys, but the film was all about Romuluns...). I mean, I did happily note "boldly go where no one has gone before," instead of "no man." But OK, I was a cable-free kid. I grew up with PBS, NBC, FOX, and the WB-turned-CW. And when it was 10pm on a weekday and I had finished my homework, hell yeah I would tune in to Patrick Stewart's shiny Next Generation head. I don't remember much of the cast besides him, Levar Burton, and some frizzy-haired chick named Troy, but I remember a few episodes significantly freaked me out up to age eleven, in that deep-tingling, you-kinda-like-it way.

So when Kim sheepishly asked me to go see the movie with her, yes, OK, maybe I wanted to, especially after seeing the main cast members and Nimoy himself on the SNL season finale.

Since I don't have much to knowledgebly comment on, I'll make my response simple. I think it was a marvelous extension of the franchise and, as a sort of outsider to the original cast and plots, I really didn't have any problems with it. And from what I hear, Trekkie friends and youtubers aren't so enraged with the time-travel and alternate universes (universi?).

But above all that, I may or may not have had the girl-equivalent-of-a-hard-on for Spock circa the entire duration of the film, and this slightly worries me. Am I one of them now? Can I have a Vulcan poster in my dorm room next semester and maintain my dignity? Spock, you can live lo[ooo]ng and prosper in my bed every night, baby.

In a purposefully unrelated subject, my fondness for media and culture is mushrooming with my free time and wireless this summer, so congratulations on winning the 2009 World Transgender Pageant, Miss Tiffany Universe, Sorrawee Nattee! These chicks are seriously hot.

May 13, 2009

War, grunt.

I'm sitting in bed, laptop on thigh, as every night this past week. I seem to fail at getting anything done or even being able intelligently function ever since school ended. I don't really have any goals except getting my license. One guy's status on Facebook said "waging a war against my belongings" and I decided that was pretty definitive of my current situation. There are too many items in my life between home and college and I'm too stubborn to part with any of them. I wish I could be super Spartan with my belongings like John who had a total of 5 bags when he left from the Delt house last week. I had:

10 bags from the Delt House room
18 bags from the Ravine room
2 laundry baskets full of things
&one saxophone

Not to mention my fridge, lamp, TV, DVD player, and pouf chair in storage.

That does it. I own too many things and need to zennify my life by throwing it all out/having a super yard sale.

Omg, a yard sale. The PR possibilities...I could Overkill up the signs. I could offer one free cupcake with every purchase. There could be pink lemonade. NEW SUMMER PROJECT.

May 12, 2009

Well damn.

I might supremely hate myself for venturing back into the blogosphere tomorrow, but for now, I'll savor the college student cliche. After all, a blog was my first internet addiction and socializing tool during high school. Then, in order:

Livejournal
Myspace
Facebook
Twitter

And here we are again.

Not my fault, I blame the inspiration on James Hepplewhite. Not that my writing is even close to as inspiring, interesting, or intelligent as his, but I've always been a solipsistic individual and I love the idea of audience, even if its not there. Color me wrong, but that's the story, wishbone.

I'm also mildly interested in the fact that I can't escape the food theme, as far as usernames go. I find the idea of a surreptitious bundle hilarious and fascinating, but also I really
like the word bun. In fact, today I baked a bun of challah bread with my mom. I may have severe passion for food. Past usernames include:

marblecupcake, twitter
onion_for_you, livejournal
Duchess of Cupcakes, sorority life


And past screennames on AIM, dating back to grade school:
Creampuff6
Iciclepuff66
LemonMeringue04
chocoholic64640

Not to mention, I adore that my sorority is Alpha Delta PI.



I kind of hope no one ever reads this. I don't plan to tell anyone about it.


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